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Feb. 11th, 2020 07:27 pm11 Make a list of three things you’d like to say no to.
I mean, does saying no to them make them go away? In that case: 1) fascism 2) anthropogenic climate change and 3) for-profit healthcare.
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Had kind of a shitty day. Not only did I have to go to work to make up for not being able to last Sunday or next Sunday, but it was a lot of work and I didn't plan well enough to be able to eat anything today until like 5pm. I spent a lot of time waiting for buses (seven altogether) and the weather is still horrifying: cold, windy, and there was lots of sleet.
Best of all, I've lost my white cane. This sucks a lot. I'm taking sensible steps to track it down (but the low-hanging fruit hasn't turned it up yet), I have a guide cane I can get by with, and I know how to get a new one if need be.
But I'm unsettled without it, especially because I have no idea what happened. I just went to get it out of my bag and it wasn't there. It's always there when it's not in my hand.
It's the last thing I need when I'm this tired and stressed. Even though I know this kind of thing happens because I'm tired and stressed.
I hate this especially because I hate asking places if my cane has turned up there. I'm worried people who don't know about what visual impairment is like and don't know how people use white canes will say that it should be impossible to forget it because I can't possibly get anywhere without it. I'm worried people will think I'm a fake or a joke.
No one's said anything like that but part of being marginalized is anticipating things like this. They do happen. But I hate having internalized it like this.
I mean, does saying no to them make them go away? In that case: 1) fascism 2) anthropogenic climate change and 3) for-profit healthcare.
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Had kind of a shitty day. Not only did I have to go to work to make up for not being able to last Sunday or next Sunday, but it was a lot of work and I didn't plan well enough to be able to eat anything today until like 5pm. I spent a lot of time waiting for buses (seven altogether) and the weather is still horrifying: cold, windy, and there was lots of sleet.
Best of all, I've lost my white cane. This sucks a lot. I'm taking sensible steps to track it down (but the low-hanging fruit hasn't turned it up yet), I have a guide cane I can get by with, and I know how to get a new one if need be.
But I'm unsettled without it, especially because I have no idea what happened. I just went to get it out of my bag and it wasn't there. It's always there when it's not in my hand.
It's the last thing I need when I'm this tired and stressed. Even though I know this kind of thing happens because I'm tired and stressed.
I hate this especially because I hate asking places if my cane has turned up there. I'm worried people who don't know about what visual impairment is like and don't know how people use white canes will say that it should be impossible to forget it because I can't possibly get anywhere without it. I'm worried people will think I'm a fake or a joke.
No one's said anything like that but part of being marginalized is anticipating things like this. They do happen. But I hate having internalized it like this.