Things ... 1,2,3
May. 21st, 2026 05:49 pm- I have recently discovered the Blue badge parking website, which is an interactive map showing location of disabled parking bays. It's going to be useful when I'm planning an excursion with my father-in-law, but also - people updating the map to help other people - nice.
- I have gotten my personal inbox down to less than 10 emails. This is mostly because I was procrastinating by reading / deleting emails instead of doing what I ought, but still wheeee!
- About 6 months after everyone else, I have discovered and become addicted to the 2025 game https://thomaswc.com/2025.html
- I've been catching up on 2 weeks of dreamwidth posts -
dolorosa_12 has a thread on what is special for you about Dreamwidth, and why do you like it.
Comment from
sixbeforelunch:I've come to see a certain amount of friction as a really valuable part of the world, making harder for bad actors to manipulate people, and forcing even good-faith actors to stop and think from time to time before going with the flow.
Interesting Links for 21-05-2026
May. 21st, 2026 12:00 pm- 1. Starmer letting Putin off the hook is a betrayal of Britain (and Ukraine, of course)
- (tags:UK Russia oil trade economics OhForFucksSake )
- 2. Tracking Starbucks' 'Widely Recyclable' Plastic Cups. None Ended Up at a Recycling Facility.
- (tags:recycling fraud coffee )
- 3. Declining America
- (tags:travel USA fascism )
- 4. Chickens without eggs? De-extinction company creates artificial egg.
- (tags:eggs birds extinction )
- 5. Not alive, but not dead: disembodied human brains used for drug testing
- (tags:drugs research brain death )
- 6. An LLM has disproved a central conjecture in discrete geometry
- (tags:ai mathematics )
I did the thing
May. 20th, 2026 08:17 pmHere it isn
( the text from the GFM )
Anything, including sharing the link, would be amazing. And, honestly, just being able to have this space to flail about all this has been really helpful, so thank you all for reading and commenting. It's meant a lot.
Broken Arms are Boring
May. 20th, 2026 04:48 pmThat's in between laboriously doing one-handed household things. I've developed procedures for opening catfood cans and cleaning litter boxes. I'm exploring cooking techniques and have done some strategic shopping for easier approaches. (Prepared salad greens. K-cups for coffee. But I also happen to have a significant inventory of prepared meals in the freezer.)
After considering simply putting the podcast on hiatus for the duration, I've decided to do re-runs. (Minimal typing required.) Based on healing time estimates, I should be back in action by the podcast's 10th anniversary show (which will be an interview, so no extensive typing required). The most annoying part of working at my desk is that the strap of the sling tends to cause my shoulder to spasm. I need to work up some way to support the cast without the sling when sitting there.
Very few things that require driving in the next two months. I can manage driving but I'd prefer to minimize it. We'll see how I'm feeling when Baycon gets closer. I'd been planning to commute (gas is still cheaper than the hotel), but now I'm not sure.
But no bicycling, no gym, no tai chi, and no reason to do my coffee shop work sessions. No serious yard work, no crafts requiring two hands. (My knitted socks had just gotten to the bind-off stage and are now stuck there.) I need to see if I can do my article write-ups for the blog by dictation. I could definitely get a lot of reading done once my brain feels up to it.
some good things!
May. 20th, 2026 11:05 pm- Saw the goldfinch(es) again on my way home from gym + shop.
- Birthday cake continues to exist :)
- For five glorious minutes I was one of only two people in the gym (and the other one was very quiet, so it's just as well that other people showed up as I was starting to deadlift, really).
- Vanity: ( Read more... ).
- There are lots and lots of wildflower verges on my various perambulations and I cannot emphasise enough how much I am enjoying having ready access to both the hedges covered in sea pinks and patches of long grass mingled with poppies and (multiple colours of!) cornflowers and Margeriten.
A major milestone for L.
May. 20th, 2026 11:11 amThere are so many milestones that mark the various social and legal phases of transition from childhood to adulthood. L. has just hit another one — possibly the final one, although I'm sure another one will pop up to hit us right in the feels when we least expect it.
Tomorrow is L.'s 22nd birthday, which marks the point that her pediatrician will no longer see her. So yesterday was L.'s final visit with her pediatrician. She got her yearly physical, got a recommendation for a new PCP, and got to say good-bye to the doctor who's seen her grow up. It was a surprisingly emotional event.
Interesting Links for 20-05-2026
May. 20th, 2026 12:00 pm- 1. Did Zohran Mamdani's New Budget Really Eliminate New York City's Deficit?
- (tags:budget tax newyork facts )
- 2. Standard Thermal - dirt cheap thermal energy from renewables
- (tags:renewables heating energy )
- 3. Impressive Gassian splat of a bumblebee. Amazing level of detail.
- (tags:photography bee )
- 4. What do Labour members think of Streeting, Burnham, and other leadership contenders?
- (tags:labour politics uk polls )
- 5. A good video guide to Ozempic, how it works, and what the long term looks like
- (tags:obesity medicine video )
- 6. More than 60 Labour MPs call for review of UK voting system
- (tags:voting reform labour UK politics )
- 7. Autistic children are the best
- (tags:children autism funny )
Aargh, Windows!
May. 20th, 2026 09:34 amI left my laptop on last night when I went to cook tea and watch a couple of hours of TV with my sister, when I came back to it later it was dead.
Not just turned off, unwakeable, It's dead, Jim!
So I was more than a little stressed when I went to sleep.
I woke up at 6:30 this morning (hours earlier than usual) and thought, okay, let's have a look at it.
When I pressed the on button, the LED in the caps lock button lit (not convinced it did this last night). So I knew it was getting power, and after a couple of minutes I got the Dell logo - this is looking good!
Then I got a Blue Screen - Please enter your 48 Digit Bitlocker number.
What? What the hell! WTF is Bitlocker!?! (I may have known at one time, I certainly didn't know at 6:30 this morning).
So I grabbed my tablet to find out that Bitlocker is Windows 11's on-by-default disc encryption. Oh, FFS, Microsoft! I don't need on-by-default disc encryption, particularly if my system has half-died and my record of my Microsoft Account password I need to look up the 48 digit key is on the drive you won't let me into.
Fortunately I then noticed a Continue button off to the side on the bluescreen and it let me take it, which started Windows booting up.
As far as I can tell, I must have interrupted a Windows update last night, which threw up the Bitlocker thing out of spite.
After some poking around in settings, Bitlocker is turned off and theoretically busy decrypting my hard-drive - some kind of process bar would be nice - and I'll be updating my USB with key files backups later.
:heavy sigh:
May. 19th, 2026 07:56 pmFor those who don't know I'm blind/low vision. I can't see out of one eye, and I have very little sight in the other one. I've always been this way, but over the years, my vision deteriorates because one of my issues is glaucoma. In 2023-2024 I was having really bad pressure issues and I lost more sight in less time than normal because no one was listening to me when I said there was something wrong.
(Why yes, I'm still bitter about this. I was bothering doctors for a year and a half, and they only listened to me when my eye pressure was at 72. On the chance you don't know, your normal pressure is supposed to be around 10-15)
So, I've been dealing with adjusting to more vision lost the last few years. It's not been great, but I'm doing it. Today though, I went for a low vision exam. Basically they're people who can look into specialty lenses for glasses and stuff like that. As it turns out, there is a lens that can help me get more sight going in my left eye. Yay!
To get those glasses, it's going to cost me $1300.
I do not have this money. I was so, so excited all through the visit and then we got to cost and I just wanted to slowly tip over.
The specialist is going to reach out to local clubs to see if we can get some help covering them, but fuck it's so much money. And no, my insurance isn't going to help me at all.
They take CareCredit, which I do have and that'll cover some of it, but as you might remember, I'm trying to put money aside for a move. So that's going to be harder than it was before because I'm taking on one more payment.
And maybe it's a bad choice to take on more debt while I'm trying to move, but also I really want more fucking eyesight.
So yeah, very much a heavy sigh.
some good things
May. 19th, 2026 10:51 pm- Today in birds: choughs, stonechats, the flock of goldfinches, cormorants, and infinite gulls and jackdaws and crows.
- Nerve glides continue to sound like bullshit but they are also actually and immediately helping with the mistake that is the sciatic nerve, so that's cheering.
- Finished the current puzzle! Less the one missing piece. Absolute nonsense, would almost certainly happily do again. The thing about it, right, is that it has lots of textures and internal edges, so it was often very easy to put a big patch together and very hard to work out where it actually went. (Shocking nobody, I was much less into the landscapes and figures in the middle of the big platters...)
- Made it down to the beach multiple times, both at approximately low tide and approximately high tide. Spent some quality time watching the waves. V good.
- Sleepy pile with A remains extremely good. <3
three things make a post
May. 19th, 2026 02:51 pm*After a mild spring, it suddenly got hot today. Fortunately, we had enough warning that
adrian_turtle was able to contact our usual handyman and have him put the air conditioners back in the window, which he did a couple of hours ago. I am staying inside today, because 97F/36C ("feels like" 39/102) is too damned hot for me; I'm glad the handyman was willing to come when he did, rather than early in the day.
*I have been going back and forth with my health insurance company and various people at my psychiatrist's office and the Beth Israel Lahey billing department over a claim that the insurance told me they were denying. The denial letter, with instructions about how to appeal, was dated April 26 and arrived on the 28th, but they haven't sent that to my doctor's office/billing. Meanwhile, billing first told me I don't have an outstanding bill, and then today could find it but said they couldn't do anything as long as it's "pending insurance." Someone at the insurance company suggested I ask the doctor to resubmit with a different code, which seems to have them puzzled. (It was sent in as "doctor's visit, long.") Someone at the insurance company advised me to have the doctor resubmit this with a different code, but when I gave up on billing and sent my doctor a message, she said she didn't know what I want her to do and was forwarding the message to the admin people.
Trying to figure out this insurance mess is why I was on the MyChart website Sunday, and thus led to me getting an overdue mammogram yesterday.
*I mail-ordered a bunch of spices from Penzey's. I'd wanted to get this done sooner so we could take advantage of last weekend's sale, but
cattitude reasonably wanted time to look through the spice cabinet. So I assembled an order yesterday, and saw that the most recent politically-themed sale would get me discounts on more things I actually wanted: peppercorns and mustard, rather than their "lemon pepper" seasoning.
Last weekend's sale was loosely immigration themed. The current one is anything starting with I, M, or P, with a promise of a discount on E, A, C, and H in a couple of days to spell out IMPEACH (which is also the current discount code). In any case, we need the pepper and mustard, as well as a variety of things that don't start with those letters, like roast garlic powder and cracked rosemary, which added up to enough for free shipping.
Secular paganism post: grounding into things that aren’t the ground
May. 19th, 2026 12:44 pmEarth -
• align yourself with the gravity that pulls you down toward the solid surface you reside on.
• feel the strength of the force holding you to the world we live in.
• ground your energy into that stability.
Air -
• align yourself with entropy that disorders, but also connects all things, without which no life is possible: the air you breathe and that touches your skin with gentle barometric pressure, the fluctuation that produces randomness and therefore motion and stirs everything it touches.
• feel the breath of the world on your skin.
• ground your energy into variability.
Fire -
• align yourself with light, with the electromagnetic vibrations that bathe everything on and inside of the planet we reside on. The neutrinos sleeting past us, the hum of electricity as it courses through the wires around us, the WiFi that you are probably using to read this right now.
• feel the heartbeat of your body, mediated by electrical signals, which echoes the heartbeat of the world in its long, slow vibration of changing magnetic poles.
• ground your energy into vibration.
Water
• align yourself with the push and pull of decay and synthesis, with fission and fusion, with the weak nuclear force that splits things and the strong nuclear force that binds them. The dance of separation and unification is the oldest dance there is, predating matter itself.
• feel the diurnal cycles of day and night, sleep and wake, being and unbeing.
• ground your energy into the dance of opposites.
Spirit -
• align yourself with consciousness, the as-yet-unexplained emergent property of these forces, with the unknown and incommunicable existence of the mind.
• feel yourself existing.
• ground your energy into awareness.
Interesting Links for 19-05-2026
May. 19th, 2026 12:00 pm- 1. EU states must provide proper ID for transgender citizens
- (tags:LGBT transgender Europe law GoodNews )
- 2. The two methods for improving research
- (tags:research fraud psychology behaviour ethics doom )
- 3. Iran Starts Bitcoin-Backed Ship "Insurance" for Hormuz Strait
- (tags:Iran blockchain trade )
- 4. Iran is going to charge for the safety of internet cables in the Strait of Hormuz
- (tags:internet infrastructure Iran )
Three Pages
May. 19th, 2026 11:26 amThe 'morning pages' feels very woo but (annoyingly) it's working for me. The first page is always witter - coffee, the weather, my cat, to-do list but on page 2 & 3 I run out of witter and it gets interesting. I have to use my words when I write, and this makes me work out I think or feel about something, or what I'm fearful about. Definitely less anxious afterwards. (I am remembering my first bash at seeing a therapist, maybe 15-20 years ago. She'd say 'how do you feel about this?' and I'd say 'dun know, nothing much'. I gave up after a few visits.)
If you google morning pages, there are so many articles & posts where people make a lovely ritual of it - morning coffee, scented candles and 20 minutes of thoughtful contemplation before they start their very productive day. It's not like that for me; I find it very hard to get the words out, like digging big rocks out of clay. I keep on finding distractions - must look up spelling, sync garmin with phone, check email, hang up laundry, find Diski's essay on Anne Franks, etc. Whole process (with deviations) takes about an hour.
Reading Monday #5
May. 18th, 2026 11:18 pm1. What have you recently finished reading?
Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon: Naoko Takeuchi Collection: Volume 1. I got the two whole box sets for Christmas and am finally getting around to reading them, among other things. I do a lot better with physical copies of manga--I can physically see and feel my progress. That being said, I'm farther than all my other attempts to get into Sailor Moon, so I count this as a win!
Slip by Marika McCoola and Aatmaja Pandya. I was scanning the teen graphic novel shelves at work for whatever reason, and this caught me eye. A pretty nice story, I'd recommend!
2. What are you currently reading?
Severance by Ling Ma STILL!!! I'm taking a manga break, so it doesn't count.
Sailor Moon...Volume 2. I was supposed to be done with this today, but like I said, busy!
3. What will you be reading next?
Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card definitely. The book club meeting is next Thursday.
Sailor Moon...Volume 3, because duh.
Exciting Adventures in Strawberry Picking
May. 18th, 2026 07:20 pmSo there I was yesterday, after finishing the late afternoon chores, out picking strawberries in the back yard. (I get a good bowlful every week currently, plus another bowlful of blueberries.) And I stepped wrong, tripped over my own feet, and fell on the concrete walkway, catching myself with my left hand and spilling the berries all over.
Well, you may be guessing where this is heading. I looked down at my arm, thought, "That's not what a wrist is supposed to look like," and my vision started going gray. I pulled out my phone, called Denise, and said, "I just fell and broke my arm." Before I got another word out, she said she was on her way. I carefully got myself up, grabbed my purse, let myself out through the garage (so I could use the phone app for the garage door and not bother with keys), and leaned against the fence, contemplating whether it would be a good idea to sit down, but not sure I could do so safely.
Anyway, got down to Kaiser ER and got taken care of. As expected, I didn't get released until midnight, at which point the friend-transport network had changed shifts, with a third party on standby. (The ER staff were a bit surprised that I had friends stepping up like that--evidently it's not typical?)
Today I'm having "fun" figuring out how to do things one-handed. (Opening pull-top cat food cans has been the hardest so far. Typing one-handed is tedious but not difficult.)
They expect to pull me in again in the next day or so for surgery to stabilize the bones since the break (radius and ulna both) is so close to the wrist.
During the traction to set the bones the doctor told me I was very brave, but honestly it was mostly the Fentanyl.
Is there life out there?
May. 18th, 2026 08:11 pmNot that I don’t already love the little circle I’ve found so far, it’s just that my reading page gets pretty slow sometimes lol. I still feel like I’m only seeing this tiny little pocket of DW though and there has to be way more active people floating around that I just haven’t found yet.
I think what I’m looking for most is journals that feel personal and alive. People talking about their actual lives, interests, fandoms, hobbies, nature, daily observations, culture, random thoughts, photography, long rambly posts, whatever. I really miss that feeling of actually getting to know people over time like the old days of LJ. I’m definitely open to friendships growing beyond just commenting on entries too if we genuinely click, too.
How do y’all usually find new people these days? Communities? Mutuals?
Also if anybody knows journals you think I’d click with based on my own entries/interests and who are open to meeting new people/making new friends, I would genuinely love suggestions because I’m trying to branch out a little more.
Thank youuuu <3
Beers and cheeses
May. 18th, 2026 11:35 pmBeer festival this evening, I had three cheeses on the platter:
- Cornish Yarg
- Pecorino
- Mayfield (a swiss cheese, excellently tasty, a+ would eat again)
I also had four different 0.5% beers, all them also vegan[1], of which the standout was Mash Gang's Lesser Evil, a chocolate cherry stout with a lovely complex set of flavours to it. (I have already ordered some cans for home consumption ...)
Honourable mention goes to Heaps Normal's Half Day Hazy, which I thoroughly enjoyed.
Infinite Session's Infinite IPA and Hepworth's Aztec were fine but I didn't love them.
Others I particularly want to try this week from the no-alcohol list
- Moon Rabbit by Tartarus, a vanilla stout (vg)
- Milk Stout by Nirvana
- IPA also by Nirvana
- Hazy Galaxy by Vinohradský
- Goram IPA Zero by Butcombe
- Faith IPA by Northern Monk
- Bold IPA by Queer Brewing
- Juicy AF: Mango Pale by Only With Love, what it says on the tin (vg)
- Tropical AF by Kasteel
- Nillis by La Trappe
[1] I am not vegan but I sometimes drink with people who are, and the intersection of vegan and no-alcohol beers is not large
I aten’t ded yet
May. 18th, 2026 06:04 pmI’m going to try to catch up on everyone’s journals tonight and tomorrow morning. Luck to all of us.
