Immateria girl

[cosmolinguist]

My mom asked me on the phone on Sunday what we wanted for Christmas.

Andrew's got 57 pages of Amazon wishlist and has already prepared a list of things my family can get him when they live in the middle of nowhere and refuse to buy things on the internet.

I've got nothing.

What do I want?

I want tights that fit and don't tear; I seem to be tearing them all the first time I wear them lately and I don't know why but it makes me feel fat and ungainly and the wrong shape for clothes.

I want my mom to be okay this Christmas even though her dad's dead and her son's dead.

Hell I want me to be okay despite those things.

I want a new bike. But I already have a bike there, and I can't ship it without it costing a lot more than another bike. Anyway I'm itching to get a new bike; I was looking at them on eBay the other day, with expert advice, and since then my brain is full of thoughts about short stems and upright handlebars and the relative positions of the top pipe and the back wheel.

I want my aunt not to drive me crazy.

I can't think of anything I want that can be wrapped up in a box.

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[sfred]

*nods*
*hug*

[bunnypip.livejournal.com]

*sends hugs* (in a box)

[cosmolinguist]

:)

[kickthehobbit.livejournal.com]

the tights might be possible...I get mine from welovecolors, and they're pretty sturdy. also, they're plus-sized and don't do the control-top thing. doesn't help with telling your mom what to buy you, but...

[indigopirate.livejournal.com]

Dance tights are also worth looking at they are engineered to stay up when dancing, come in lots of sizes and generally better quality than most. Not the cheapest but worth it!

[emma-b79.livejournal.com]

What about asking for money to buy a bike here?

[cosmolinguist]

I have the money to buy a bike :) I just need to wait on my Expert Advice to feel better enough that we can go shopping (I'm pretty clueless on my own).

Someone always suggests money when I moan about my family and Christmas presents, and I always wish I'd remembered to add a disclaimer saying my mom refuses to give or let anyone else give us moeny as presents for anything (high-school graduation and wedding are the only exceptions I know of to this, and even with a really good excuse not to ask for physical presents for my wedding, she wasn't happy that I'd put on the invitation not to buy us stuff). My mom says money is impersonal.

All those years when we barely had money for rent or bills or food, when it was a huge trauma to buy plane tickets to get us there, we'd come back not with a litle something to help with that, but a T-shirt with pictures of angels on it in puff-paint, yet another manicure set (I think my grandma must have forgotten she was handing those out every year for a while), jewelry I'd never wear from people who thought "Holly's a girl, girls must like this shit right?" Which just feels ever so much more personal than taking my wishes into consideration and getting me what I want, right?

[emma-b79.livejournal.com]

My parents won't give me money either.....unless I have something specific in mind that I want to get and it's impractical for them to buy it for me......such as a bike that you can then take a photo of in the uk and say...look what you got me that I couldn't ship from the US, it's fab thanks so much! Just an idea.

[cosmolinguist]

It won't work, but thanks :)

I'm not waiting that long for a bike anyway, I hope!

Now that I have a job I can buy myself anything I want, and my house is overfull with books, DVDs and music thanks to Andrew never countenancing getting rid of One. Single. Thing. I rarely wear the clothes my mom buys me if I have any choice about it... Really I don't want anything. That's what makes this difficult.

[mrs-leroy-brown.livejournal.com]

*cheeky mode*

ask them to donate to the LibDem cause or QUITLBAG stuff.

/cheeky mode.

[cosmolinguist]

Heh. Since I was a teenager I've fervently wished they'd donate some money to a good charity or something on my behalf, but it didn't work then and it sure as hell won't now when they have no way to interfere in my life show their love except with buying me stuff.

Plus all my aunts and uncles and grandma buy us stuff too. And while one aunt always gets us a Target giftcard we can't spend (we fly back a day or two later; there's no time to go to Target), the others might actually be more willing to give money to Lib Dems (because they don't know what they are; the words "liberal" and "democrat" mean different things in America, as I know I don't have to tell you :) ) or maybe even quiltbaggery, but it ain't gonna happen because of my mom's injunction against money: "You Have To Have Something To Open On Christmas Day." So, puff-paint angel t-shirts it is!

[rosalux.livejournal.com]

would they possibly do Angel Tree? That is all the joy of buying and wrapping stuff.

Are there family photos you would like? If it wouldn't rip her up too much to find/copy/frame them? Or, a small book of familiy recipes, or a product of a craft she does? I am ridiculously sad not to have any of my grandma's crocheted fridge butterflies.

Maybe for flying back and forth you need a bag weigher. My international brother carries one so he can maximize his suitcases for travel.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

Send me all the Target gift cards and I will send you money. :)

[cosmolinguist]

That's a good idea! (Only please don't send me any money; I don't need it. The damn cards are just a burden.)

I will send you Target cards and unwanted yarn and feel much better about the Christmas presents I have to open this year.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

WIN! (Of course I complicated this with just where you needed to send things. Mmph.)