Unpacking for suitcases and mind
Jan. 9th, 2017 06:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cosmolinguistFinally got the last of the unpacking done. I've never left it as long as this! A week and a half.
It's not hard work -- I just folded and (mostly) put away a load of laundry with about as much difficulty -- except that it's hard emotional labor.
New stuff. And we don't need more stuff.
There's nowhere to put what we already had.
I need a better system.
I need fewer t-shirts.
And sweaters.
I need Andrew to tell me which clothes he doesn't wear any more.
It's hard to get rid of stuff my parents got me, though. There is so little of them in my life as it is.
But... Some of what they've given me is control-top tights and I'm never gonna wear those; I've got tights that actually fit and aren't trying to make me into a different person!
I'd sort of like to be a different person in other ways, though. I'm angry so much of the time lately, which is so weird for me so it's disconcerting too.
I'm connumicating badly, to the extent it might've cost me one of my volunteering roles -- something that's still too stressful to think about enough to write it, but suffice it to say it's the one I'll miss least.
It'd be a relief not to be doing it except I don't know what's gonna happen with that thing now and I do really want it to happen, and because I think I was unfairly maligned which hurts my pride but honestly pride is pretty far down on the list of things I get to worry about.
It's not hard work -- I just folded and (mostly) put away a load of laundry with about as much difficulty -- except that it's hard emotional labor.
New stuff. And we don't need more stuff.
There's nowhere to put what we already had.
I need a better system.
I need fewer t-shirts.
And sweaters.
I need Andrew to tell me which clothes he doesn't wear any more.
It's hard to get rid of stuff my parents got me, though. There is so little of them in my life as it is.
But... Some of what they've given me is control-top tights and I'm never gonna wear those; I've got tights that actually fit and aren't trying to make me into a different person!
I'd sort of like to be a different person in other ways, though. I'm angry so much of the time lately, which is so weird for me so it's disconcerting too.
I'm connumicating badly, to the extent it might've cost me one of my volunteering roles -- something that's still too stressful to think about enough to write it, but suffice it to say it's the one I'll miss least.
It'd be a relief not to be doing it except I don't know what's gonna happen with that thing now and I do really want it to happen, and because I think I was unfairly maligned which hurts my pride but honestly pride is pretty far down on the list of things I get to worry about.
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Date: 2017-01-09 09:17 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2017-01-10 11:26 am (UTC)Preeeecisely. I've been trying to do all the things I know to do when that happens, but the stress hadn't gone away -- maybe shifted to a new subject, but it's still there -- that I'm out of cope and patience and energy.
I'd be happy to just listen, to give my thoughts, whichever you wanted...
This is so kind! Thank you. Today is fired because I have only had one hour of sleep, but another day I may well take you up on this. :)
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Date: 2017-01-10 02:15 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2017-01-11 12:19 am (UTC)Sorry things are so hard in many places right now for you as you are brilliant it is not fair.