More processing sorry

It's really sad to me how emphatic the response of "yeah, don't come to the U.S. now" has been from my pals who are there.

It's frustrating that a lot of the family I won't be seeing at this funeral (not my parents, but all the rest of them, including my grandma if she was physically able to vote in November) voted for a situation where I couldn't come back to be there with them.

To be clear, there are many reasons this would be difficult. And I fully expect to just have to drag up and style it out at some point. But the fact that this alone is sufficient for everyone to be like "yeah no don't"... Feels bad!

I've always been haunted by my what my mom told me her horrible sister's husband's response was when Mom was outraged at the Supreme Court decision overturning of abortion rights: "What do you care, you don't need one."

Not only is that morally bankrupt thinking on the face of it, but sometimes the guy they claim they voted for because eggs are too expensive is also gonna make it dangerous for their """niece""" or whatever to be at important family occasions. They're not as unaffected as they think.

But they'll never know. I didn't want to explain to my parents and even if I tried they wouldn't understand and even if they did they wouldn't relay the message to the extended family and even if all that happened nobody would believe this or reflect on it or think or do anything differently in future so why bother trying. I'm not their very important life lesson.