An all-oopsies no-daisies kind of day

[cosmolinguist]

I was almost glad to hear my alarm this morning because it woke me up from an absolutely appalling dream. The kind where you find yourself back among people from your past who've hurt you, and try to explain how they hurt you, and... it doesn't go well. The kind you make notes for your next counseling session about after ruminating on it as you get dressed. The kind that leaves you rattled and tired in ways that last all day.

At least I was dragging myself up into a sunny morning and a gentle work day.

I feel like I sleepwalked my way through work, including ignoring Gary a lot as he squeaked about the other two humans being missing for a couple hours in the middle of the day. But also I fed him and myself and took him out for so many little walks that we were outside when the car returned with our humans and he had his usual charming and funny moments of realization that they were back.

I got a very annoying text saying my testosterone level was too high the last time it was tested, so I am not free yet of needles every couple months (if this one had been okay, I could go 6 months until the next one!!!). I don't even know if the level actually is high; They always tell me the gel has to be applied 4-6 hours before the blood test but my GP only does blood tests in the morning! Sorry I'm bad at waking up at 4-5am to take my fucking meds. I'd never get back to sleep knowing the prospect of needles was hanging over my morning, what a grim day that would be!

I needed a nap after work, and I'm so incapable of napping that this is never a good sign -- it usually only happens when I'm sick! I slept fine (in terms of amount of sleep if not quality of sleep...) so it's frustrating to still be in this state.

I had to be woken up for dinner, struggled to eat it, and have just felt bad this whole time. Somewhat mitigated by a Wednesdoof playing many Doof classics as people get excited for a festival that's an anchor of the Doof calendar.

Comments

[cosmicjellyfish]

Oh, that sounds rough. I hate that particular flavour of dream. D: Here's hoping the next day treats you better.

[cosmolinguist]

It did, thank you!

[mst3kforall]

I don’t know what to say, but I’m here and I care.

[cosmolinguist]

<3