tl;dr: I got the job!
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cosmolinguistAfter my interview, diffrentcolours realized none of us had had lunch yet and came up with a plan for all three of us to go out to eat, outside a pub. It was lovely; we haven’t all been able to do much together lately and with him and I being away so much recently, this felt extra special.
By the time we got out of the car at the pub, I had a missed call and a voicemail. The message was from one of the guys who’d interviewd me, telling me to call him back. I tried, didn’t work. He had a meeting in like 40 minutes and I was desperate to do this before then. I hadn’t been phoned when I’d been unsuccessful in interviewing for this job before… I texted him saying I was free now. He tried calling again and my phone didn’t ring. We had our masks on and were through the pub into the beer garden by this point. I called him back, frantically, and this time he answered.
He was very sympathetic to there being something wrong with my phone. It apparently extended to the line being very bad; I couldn’t hear him well, and there was loud music outside. And, after my flailing and jumping around was correctly interpreted by my lil family,diffrentcolours came over to sit next to me and give me a congratulatory hug. Which was sweet and perfect but also unfortunately meant I was stuck sitting between the two of them at a kind of booth around a round table, so I couldn’t try to wander around to get a better signal, get further from the speakers, or indeed let them two of them speak (quietly! but adding to all my other sources of sound) about their lunch orders.
So I have a rough idea of what we talked about but it also felt very vague, between the sound problems and the fact that my brain had already shut down. I remember flailing around before I sat down; I don’t remember sitting down at all. It was that kind of thing.
I barely managed to order food and then didn’t recognize when the apologetic staff member said they were out of sweet potato fries and would normal fries be all right that I was the one who’d ordered the sweet potato fries. It took me a very long time to eat the food and drink my beer. I was thinking about a million things a minute; I managed to text my volunteer-manager at the organization we now both work for, and I e-mailed my parents who I knew wanted to hear because they were so goddam excited on Sunday when I reluctantly had to admit that I had this interview.
I told one bit of social media but not another one, where it could be seen by my current employers. I haven’t told them yet; my brain needs to be working a bit better for that and it hasn’t gotten much more functional all day; our pre-existing plan to go see Everything Everywhere All At Once – first cinema trip since before the pandemic! – probably didn’t help with how broken my brain is! It was worth it but between how long lunch took and how long the movie is, that has been my whole day.
Not being able to continue in that job has always been the one downside of me looking for full-time better-paid jobs. I do really like it, even as it is hard on me. And while I know it’s not my fault that I’ll be leaving both of them, one in particular, in the lurch because one’s already short of PA cover and one will have almost none without me, I feel bad. I am trying not to feel guilty or like I am abandoning them. But it is hard. I will still try to work it out so I can go to a couple of upcoming intense/difficult medical appointments with L, I’m happy to take the days off of my new job if need be. I’d just like to get him over this current hump of health-work-is-work if I can.
Especially at lunch and to some extent this evening I feel like my brain has just been spinning its wheels: I’ve been thinking about how I need new clothes (the job is mostly remote but I’ll still benefit from some Work Clothes and it’s not going to be entirely remote and at the moment I have zero work-appropriate trousers or shoes), andmother_bones said we’ll have to think about some kind of office-y setup for me (which actually dovetails to some extent with recent developments and thoughts about how to arrange our house, but it also complicates them). I’ve wondered how the job’ll affect my existing volunteering, which is mostly with or adjacent to the org I’m working for now (it won’t be difficult for anyone who knows me to guess where I’m working but I don’t want to get into details yet).
I already knew that I hadn’t had a successful job interview since 2012 (I don’t count my current job as needing an interview, it was very “L volunteers near my then-house, he bought me a coffee there, told me how to get to his house on buses, and we agreed a start date,” you know?), but it occurred to me this afternoon that I haven’t worked full-time since 2009. And then it was at a hospital, doing shift work. I haven’t had like a 9-5 job ever. Ever! Somehow I hadn’t realized that until now, heh. But yeah, a lot of things in my life, in practical terms, are about to change quite a bit. It still doesn't feel real.
diffrentcolours realized none of us had had lunch yet and came up with a plan for all three of us to go out to eat, outside a pub. It was lovely; we haven’t all been able to do much together lately and with him and I being away so much recently, this felt extra special.By the time we got out of the car at the pub, I had a missed call and a voicemail. The message was from one of the guys who’d interviewd me, telling me to call him back. I tried, didn’t work. He had a meeting in like 40 minutes and I was desperate to do this before then. I hadn’t been phoned when I’d been unsuccessful in interviewing for this job before… I texted him saying I was free now. He tried calling again and my phone didn’t ring. We had our masks on and were through the pub into the beer garden by this point. I called him back, frantically, and this time he answered.
He was very sympathetic to there being something wrong with my phone. It apparently extended to the line being very bad; I couldn’t hear him well, and there was loud music outside. And, after my flailing and jumping around was correctly interpreted by my lil family,
diffrentcolours came over to sit next to me and give me a congratulatory hug. Which was sweet and perfect but also unfortunately meant I was stuck sitting between the two of them at a kind of booth around a round table, so I couldn’t try to wander around to get a better signal, get further from the speakers, or indeed let them two of them speak (quietly! but adding to all my other sources of sound) about their lunch orders.So I have a rough idea of what we talked about but it also felt very vague, between the sound problems and the fact that my brain had already shut down. I remember flailing around before I sat down; I don’t remember sitting down at all. It was that kind of thing.
I barely managed to order food and then didn’t recognize when the apologetic staff member said they were out of sweet potato fries and would normal fries be all right that I was the one who’d ordered the sweet potato fries. It took me a very long time to eat the food and drink my beer. I was thinking about a million things a minute; I managed to text my volunteer-manager at the organization we now both work for, and I e-mailed my parents who I knew wanted to hear because they were so goddam excited on Sunday when I reluctantly had to admit that I had this interview.
I told one bit of social media but not another one, where it could be seen by my current employers. I haven’t told them yet; my brain needs to be working a bit better for that and it hasn’t gotten much more functional all day; our pre-existing plan to go see Everything Everywhere All At Once – first cinema trip since before the pandemic! – probably didn’t help with how broken my brain is! It was worth it but between how long lunch took and how long the movie is, that has been my whole day.
Not being able to continue in that job has always been the one downside of me looking for full-time better-paid jobs. I do really like it, even as it is hard on me. And while I know it’s not my fault that I’ll be leaving both of them, one in particular, in the lurch because one’s already short of PA cover and one will have almost none without me, I feel bad. I am trying not to feel guilty or like I am abandoning them. But it is hard. I will still try to work it out so I can go to a couple of upcoming intense/difficult medical appointments with L, I’m happy to take the days off of my new job if need be. I’d just like to get him over this current hump of health-work-is-work if I can.
Especially at lunch and to some extent this evening I feel like my brain has just been spinning its wheels: I’ve been thinking about how I need new clothes (the job is mostly remote but I’ll still benefit from some Work Clothes and it’s not going to be entirely remote and at the moment I have zero work-appropriate trousers or shoes), and
mother_bones said we’ll have to think about some kind of office-y setup for me (which actually dovetails to some extent with recent developments and thoughts about how to arrange our house, but it also complicates them). I’ve wondered how the job’ll affect my existing volunteering, which is mostly with or adjacent to the org I’m working for now (it won’t be difficult for anyone who knows me to guess where I’m working but I don’t want to get into details yet). I already knew that I hadn’t had a successful job interview since 2012 (I don’t count my current job as needing an interview, it was very “L volunteers near my then-house, he bought me a coffee there, told me how to get to his house on buses, and we agreed a start date,” you know?), but it occurred to me this afternoon that I haven’t worked full-time since 2009. And then it was at a hospital, doing shift work. I haven’t had like a 9-5 job ever. Ever! Somehow I hadn’t realized that until now, heh. But yeah, a lot of things in my life, in practical terms, are about to change quite a bit. It still doesn't feel real.
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Date: 2022-05-24 10:59 pm (UTC)Congratulations.
You are 100% not responsible for your current employer's carer shortage [note to Erik brain!], and it is very kind of you to consider ways you can help ease that transition and stuff.
I hope new job goes brilliantly and you are able to get your brain to process more calmly soon.
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Date: 2022-05-25 12:20 pm (UTC)But it's still tough to see people suffering and going without. It shouldn't depend on me alone but the reality is tat for now my presence or absence is the single thing that's making a huge difference in people's lives. It's intense.
Brain is processing a bit better today, luckily. I did worry a few times this morning that I'd dreamed the whole new-job thing, but other than that I'm getting better. :)
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Date: 2022-05-25 01:56 am (UTC)Woot! \o/
Hurray! \o/
I hope you enjoy it
and I hope it is a VERY long time before you have to do another job interview
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Date: 2022-05-25 05:19 am (UTC)Oh I am so pleased for you, and I hope all the various bits of logistics that result go as smoothly as possible.
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