Out of spoons error, redo from start

[cosmolinguist]

I woke up after a ridiculous amount of sleep feeling pretty good today, but the spoons started draining almost immediately.

Partly because I've been dealing with some emotional stuff and trying to help people dear to me, but primarily because my political party, that I joined because I was an immigrant and it was the only one that said anything nice about immigrants, is running a consultation for a new immigration policy and it sucks a lot.

The only thing I can add to what Jennie said is that I am of course taking this entirely too personally. One of my answers so far reads:

I may have to choose in the future between my parents dying alone in a country with pitiful health and social care where children are expected to pick up the slack, or leave my husband (who cannot go with me as other countries’ immigration rules are as bad as the UK’s), for whom I’m a carer. Any restrictions are too strict for me as I have no money. I will not be the only person in this situation, and even if I were I believe one would be too many.

 

I probably won't keep the answer quite like that; appeals to emotion are too easily disregarded. But that's the true answer.
 

Add to this my attempts to study for my Arabic exam not working because I can't find the practice resources on the website (and it's a listening exam, so I need those) and this week I have four non-screen-readable scanned-as-images PDFs for the class where I've only had one or two at a time so far (one of which is entirely sideways like the first page of that one was before...), and I think it's fair to say I have no spoons left.

Comments

[alithea]

Ugh, *hugs* that sounds vile :(

[mother_bones]

Not that you need me to say this, but your rage is entirely appropriate re: the consultation.

Have glanced briefly at it and Jennie's points, & I just don't have the spoons to articulate just how much of a sinking feeling I got in the pit of my stomach.

*sends love and spoons*

[cosmolinguist]

Thank you. <3

They make the consultation spoon-eating by design; I swear. You don't have to answer them all but there are 60-some questions. I got through about a third and just lost the will to continue (for now! I will be back! but not everyone can manage that). And of course they don't tell you you don't have to answer them all. And they're all such soul-destroying questions anyway: "Are we harsh enough on immigrants or do we need to be worse?" "Are the tabloid-fueled xenophobes entirely correct, or even more correct than that?" This is what we're dealing with.

You have been a great replenisher of love and spoons for me lately and it is much appreciated. x

[barakta]

Ugh rage on immigration.

Email me your PDFs? I'll see if I can nobble them for you. It'll take me 5 mins at most and not be a problem, I am mostly trolling the DWP today.

[ewt]

Oof.

[davidgillon]

four non-screen-readable scanned-as-images PDFs

Ugh, someone is suffering from severe lack of clue. (Or couldn't be arsed to do it properly).

[cosmolinguist]

Yeah, I don't even know which it is. I'm not sure who does this but if I ever can get an appointment with a disability advisor (I haven't mentioned this yet but the process of doing so is so unbelievably inaccessible to me I haven't managed it for two weeks now, and for two weeks before that they didn't even answer my question which was basically like "how do I even book an appointment?"...) I am going to ask them about this and what needs to be done to make it better in future. Still, that doesn't help when I have assessments every week or two that depend on me having done the reading in the meantime...

[ivy]

Ugh, I'm so sorry. I am similarly frustrated by the political situation about immigration in the US; I am passionately on the side of the immigrants and the hew-towards-center tendency of framing the debate means that in this era of xenophobia even the parties that allegedly are on my side don't go nearly far enough and sometimes agree to compromises that are appalling and uncompassionate. I hope that the pace of things slows back down to manageable for you soon. :/