Swimming through treacle

[cosmolinguist]

Yesterday I got an e-mail inviting me to an interview for the job I applied for, and my first thought, honestly, was "great, one more fucking thing."

That's the same thought I had about the last one. It is so inconvenient having depression, it really is.

Comments

[alatefeline]

Yes. Yes it is.

Would you like a virtual hug? And/or pictures of cure fluffy animals?

[cosmolinguist]

All of that sounds good to me! Thanks. :)

[alatefeline]

*hugs*

[alatefeline]

Here are some cute animals for you.

Cat at beach:
http://themeowpost.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/07/The-Meow-Post-jetty-cats-living-among-rocks-gold-beach.jpg

Panther and cub:
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-rg9Xj2BRt1o/TdA4M_hyDDI/AAAAAAAAAA8/a_ZOLAJGzrQ/s1600/panther.jpg

Baby sea turtles:
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-PekzS7KO7xY/UZmPrWO4OMI/AAAAAAAACFk/4vratbWeRoI/s1600/3%2Bbaby%2Bsea%2Bturtles.jpg

[sfred]

*hugs*

I hope the interview goes well when you get to it.

[cosmolinguist]

Thanks. It's a week on Thursday so I have ages to be anxious about it. :/

[rmc28]

Aren't brains great :/

(I also hope it goes well; also pleased to see you are getting called to interview after slogging through applications)

[cosmolinguist]

Yeah I was honestly surprised to get an interview this time (as was the friend I talked to about it today, so it's not like just impostor syndrome or something!) because while it's for a thing I've done in general, the job is to do that with young people specifically and I have no direct experience of that. So I'm still not expecting great things, but it's one of those "will be great if I get it and totally expected if I don't" kind of things. Which should help sjtfhe anxiety anyway.

[mtbc]

I've definitely found it useful to positively reassure employers that, yes, I can deal with taking instructions from people who are both younger and less experienced than I am, that I know that's what I'm letting myself in for.

(I'm guessing the younger people aren't colleagues in this context but I figured I may as well mention anyway!)

[cosmolinguist]

Yes, the younger people are the targets of the programme rather than the colleagues. My concern is more that they will easily be able to find interview candidates that have experience specifically working with young people, which I do not.

[mtbc]

That makes sense. Maybe the opportunity to expand yourself in that way could be part of what attracts you to the position! Good luck.

[barakta]

Congrats! Sorry to hear depressionbrain isn't so pleased.

If there's anything I can do, let me know. Otherwise I send you buckets of kindness.

[cosmolinguist]

Thank you, but this is less a Natalya-type help I need (like the last one was) and more a Jen-type, so I'm gonna see her this afternoon. :D

[barakta]

:) Yay well done for arranging a Jen visit already. Hoping that enthuses you a bit and is able to kick the depression a little.

[cosmolinguist]

I am definitely feeling better now, yeah. And it's always good to see her anyway. :)

[ludy]

Thoughts

[cosmolinguist]

Thank you. <3

[angelofthenorth]

Congratulations on the interview and commiserations about the depression - There's a job I really want, I'm relatively likely to get, but I can't get my arse in gear to apply for because the depression and fatigue are kicking my backside.

[cosmolinguist]

So much sympathy. It's so difficult.

[zimena]

Congratulations on the interview. Even though it feels like one more stressful thing to deal with right now, I hope it goes well. Also, even just getting called in for an interview means that you've already made a positive impression; that they're interested in you in a good way. Good luck with it!

[cosmolinguist]

Thanks. :)

[lilysea]

Urgh. :(

I'm sorry. :(

Thinking supportive thoughts in your direction.

[cosmolinguist]

Much appreciated.

[lilysea]

BTW, here's my comforting tag if you want it. Lots of cute animals.

https://pinboard.in/u:Lilysea/t:comforting

[jesse_the_k]

Holy moly that's a good tag.

One more is (surprising, to me) on Reddit
https://www.reddit.com/r/boop/

has pictures of one beast/human touching another on the nose, gently.

[silveradept]

Congratulations on the interview, and much empathy on it being one more thing on your plate.

[mrs_leroy_brown]

Yeah - depression is a fucking asshole - take something that could be a yayful, happy thing and turn into anxious what-ifs :( Wishing you the best & sending my love xx

[cosmolinguist]

Well I'm just like...I have to do a presentation and I don't want to because that's not my kind of thing and why bother because they won't give me the job anyway and I could just stay home and do nothing forever couldn't I?

I want to have a job. I just don't want to get a job.

[jesse_the_k]

Amen.

May they read your affect as "calm, relatable, dependable."

[cosmolinguist]

Well, those are the things I'm good at when I'm doing well, so that's about the best I could hope for. Thank you for this most appropriate wish. :)

[radiantfracture]

Congratulations!

And I'm sorry.

And I identify.

{rf}

[cosmolinguist]

All appreciated.

[samanderson]

Depression is a terrible thing, watching my girlfriend suffer with it is heartbreaking. I wish you all the best with the interview