"Purity of heart is to want one thing only." —Søren Kierkegaard

[cosmolinguist]

We have established that I like things more than Andrew does. I manage to like sex more even though he asks for it more. And I like people more than he does, that's for sure.

Mostly I'm glad to be this way (of course I am; if I weren't, I would make some effort to not be this way). I like liking everything.

But sometimes I envy him his ability to want only one thing—or, at least, one thing at a time. I long for that kind of simplicity. Sometimes I want nothing more than to whittle the world down to a more managable size. I try to do that sometimes, but it never seems to work for me.

The closest I get to wanting only one thing is wanting to want only one thing.

Comments

[hexar-le-saipe.livejournal.com]

See, it's because you are a woman. Women have that wonderful ability to multitask where men have the ability to focus on one thing to the exclusion of all else. It's not just evolution, it's because we're just basically simple creatures, you only persist in seeing us as complicated.

(I am so going to get flamed for this.)

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

Why? Because you admitted to the ultimate simplicity, homelyness and one-sided cardboard character of the male species? (I am joining you in the small group of people waiting to get flamed for my sarcasm.)

[cosmolinguist]

:;laughs:: Well, I liked it.

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

Oh, and better yet according to The Economist says that the Y chromosome is eroding! Get 'em while they're fresh folks! Men won't be around for long!

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Christ, I think you just summed up my whole life in a dozen or so sentences. It's frigging hard to figure out where to go when you want to go everywhere, isn't it?

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

In the event you are male you just blew out thesis right out of the water. Men...they always ruin everything.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Just doin' muh job, ma'am. *tips hat*

If it makes you feel better, I like folk music and look good in a dress, and a good many people would let you write me off as a fluke. But not me, of course, because I like being the irritating everything-ruiner. :D

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

Your finace is lucky. Men who look good in a dress are hawt.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Why yes, yes we are. :D

[cosmolinguist]

I think your fiancée is lucky anyway. But then, I seem to have found the person who's most like you without being you (that I know of), so I can't really complain.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

ha! You wouldn't think so if you heard me snoring.

[cosmolinguist]

He snores, too.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Well, maybe, but snoring's just the tip of the iceburg for me. I thrash, drool and curse in my sleep too. To say nothing of what happens when my insomnia won't let me get to sleep.

[stealthmunchkin.livejournal.com]

You *are* me then...

[cosmolinguist]

Yeah, but his Y chromosome's probably all rotted and degenerate; we can use that as our loophole, right?

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

No, my Y's fine. I got the security patch.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Oh, and may I say somewhat belatedly that I very much dig your icon?

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

Which one? The minimal surface or the dragons?

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Minimal surface

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

Ahhh. I like it too. It vaughly vaginal and mathematical at the same time. Thank you.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes. I went to a math/science high school (strangely), and I remember many of the female students putting their "math vaginas" on their doors.

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

That sounds fun.

[cosmolinguist]

And I didn't even mention how wanting to do everything seems to end up with me not doing anything.

[strangeidea.livejournal.com]

Ah, believe me, you didn't need to.

[paper-crystals.livejournal.com]

No, she didn't.

P.F.A.C.

[riddley-walker.livejournal.com]

i have the same problem.

i'm out of college, have been for five years, and have just been working crap jobs because i can't decide what my Career (with hcapital C) could be. i was hoping somewhere in a crap job a clue would be hidden.
and here i stand, still clueless. crap jobs being one dimensional and never ending, much like Mobius strips.
this week i begin my official Push For A Clue campaign, so i thought it was cool to see you musing on the same things.
ok, i'm not supposed to be noodling on LJ, i'm supposed to be Pushing For A Clue.
i figure the first step to getting Big Things done is having an impressive acronym, right? plus then later if i flail it sounds more impressive to say, "then i joined the P.F.A.C. campaign, but that ended up not working for me" rather than, "then i quit my shit job and flaied at finding meaningful employment so i got another shit job".

why is liking everything this real blessing in the moment, in reality, but a curse in society? i dunno, that's how it seems to me right now anyways.

[josh8e.livejournal.com]

At first reading, two different interpretations for the first paragraph went through my mind. The wrong, but more amusing, one was that you like people more than sex.

[cosmolinguist]

I do like people more than I like sex, though. If I had to give up one of them, it'd definitely be sex.