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[cosmolinguist]

You 5/29 07:37 I think I've finally managed to teach my parents how to make coffee in a french press.
It's only taken three days :)
K 5/29 07:38 Lightning speed!
With appropriate inducements
You 5/29 07:43 :)
My mom managed to find a way to do it so wrong that Andrew and I are still baffled (not having seen it done, only having her explanation).
K 5/29 07:43 O.o
You 5/29 07:44 Normally she makes coffee so weak it's the color of tea and that time she managed to make it what even she admitted was too weak
K 5/29 07:44 Hee
You 5/29 07:46 So that's my day
Only four more left here. I can make it...
K 5/29 07:47 Poor you that this is about endurance
You 5/29 07:49 I know
I'm asking myself all the time if I'm just being dramatic, or wallowing in mopeyness like a pig in mud
I'm trying hard to enjoy the good bits
But nothing's really helped much
K 5/29 07:50 No it sounds to me like you're not bring treated with much respect in far too many ways in your life
You 5/29 07:52 They mean well. I'm sure in many ways that no one will love me as thoroughly, as long as I live, as my parents do
But they can do that only because the version of me that lives in their heads isn't much like me
K 5/29 07:53 Being loved well as an impostor sucks
You 5/29 07:59 I don't know what I can do about that either. We're different kinds of people. And one of the differences is, I really believe that it's possible for people to be different. To care about or eat or like or do really, truly different things
My parents think all people are basically like them, and if they're not they should be
It's not their fault; they've been raised and surrounded all their lives by people who do talk and eat and think and act like them
K 5/29 08:00 Sigh
You 5/29 08:06 Still it makes me appreciate all the more the people I've found who love me even though they know what I'm like

You 5/29 08:41 I have actually learned a lot of good things from this vacation. I should write them down
K 5/29 08:42 Yes
You 5/29 08:44 Like, that my limits really are what I think they are, and it isn't just laziness or poor character that means I usually can do what seems to me like "so little"
And that not listening when my body or brain is sending me clear signals that it's had enough is an incredibly bad idea
K 5/29 08:44 I'm sorry your limits are what they are, but glad you got that validated
You 5/29 08:45 Yeah, me too. It's kind of depressing to realize they are real limits
You 5/29 08:45 But then it's better than being lazy and lacking in character :)
K 5/29 08:45 Real doesn't necessarily mean permanent
You 5/29 08:46 Yes.
I don't think they are.
K 5/29 08:47 ((hug))
You 5/29 08:47 They'd be more likely to be if I had to keep pushing on like this all the time, though. Like walking on a broken leg can do more lasting damage than the break
K 5/29 08:48 Yes
You 5/29 08:49 So I'm grateful the rest of the time I can stop when I need to
K 5/29 08:50 I wish it wasn't your parents making you feel this way
You 5/29 08:51 So many of my best beloved friends have been treated so much worse by their parents. Hearing their stories always makes me think I had it unbelievably easy
K 5/29 08:55 Being in a situation where you're bring put into the worst of disregarded and powerless childhood is something I have rather too much fellow feeling for...that it's not physical abuse or drunken rage does not comfort me.
You 5/29 08:59 I understand. And I don't mean to diminish the misery that it is.
I'm not thinking clearly lately...I'm not myself

You 5/29 09:02 The lesson that visitors to my house who don't eat what I eat will be given all help and encouragement in getting and eating food they like is also one for my list
You 5/29 09:03 I think I do this fine anyway but I will make a point of it now that I know what it feels like to skulk around, have my "weird" breakfast before anyone's up to see it, make my own dinner and eat in the kitchen alone while everyone else has eaten together....
K 5/29 09:04 Oh dear flipping cats, Holly
K 5/29 09:05 I'm sorry you've been made to feel that way
You 5/29 09:06 I don't think it's malice that meant my mom turned off the oven after making their pork chops when all I could have was frozen pizza and she didn't even tell me when it'd be ready so I couldn't hope to coordinate meals
I don't think she meant not to tell me I hadn't turned the oven on properly as I thought I had -- she'd used it and I hadn't thought -- so I actually had to wait until long after everyone else had eaten to have my own food
You 5/29 09:07 I think it's just incompetence. But that doesn't make me feel much better

You 5/29 15:53 Take me away from all this!
K 5/29 15:56 I'll meet you at LAX

Comments

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[hartleyhare.livejournal.com]

Bloody hell. So much of this resonates with my visits home. I'm sorry.

M's parents reuse their coffee grounds so many times that we end up with something that looks like the water you use to rinse paintbrushes in. We get up early to perform a coffee heist with fresh grounds, and M's parents end up so wired they're like Duracell bunnies.

[cosmolinguist]

Oh bloody hell. I had to laugh at the image of your in-laws as Duracell bunnies, but even my parents have never perpetrated the re-use of coffee grounds! May all your coffee heists go off without a hitch, and thank you for the sympathy.

[bethanthepurple.livejournal.com]

K is wise.
Sorry it is such a struggle. Meh.

[cosmolinguist]

K is amazing (and I don't say that just because I was too scatterbrained to ask if it was okay to post chatlogs so I must now beg forgiveness rather than permission!).

Only three more days now!...today's going to be the real struggle though.