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[cosmolinguist]

I'm really disappointed that buying a new bulb for the fluorescent light downstairs hasn't resulted in the light actually working.

Buying a house has put a million demands on my time and money and knowledge when none of them are up to it. I'm annoyed that I knew I wasn't up to this before we even started looking for a house and yet the choice to burden me with it was made. I feel lonely every time something goes wrong, like the world's waiting for me to sort it out.

I'm trying to get lifelong conditions for both Andrew and I properly diagnosed so we can both get some much-needed official acknowledgment and support, I'm trying to find a job or better yet a way to train to do something other than shitty office work. Everything I try just leads me to more phone calls or e-mails I have to send to explain myself yet again to more strangers.

For every item I cross off my to-do list, three appear to take its place. I try to focus on the positives and be cheerful and look after myself, but these things are all hard to do, too. I just wish everything wasn't so hard.

Comments

[davidgillon]

Sorry I can't say anything more positive than: This!, but I know just how you feel.

[matgb]

I'm really disappointed that buying a new bulb for the fluorescent light downstairs hasn't resulted in the light actually working.

Starter thingy replaced? Or even just fiddled with a bit, which sometimes works.

[cosmolinguist]

Going to replace the starter thingy today. I couldn't even pry it out of the fitting last night so I wasn't sure I'd found it. But it does look knackered. So hopefully this will fix the problem!

[silveradept]

Oy, yes, even with just the house things. There never seems to be enough time or money to get everything handled properly.

[cosmolinguist]

And we're so short of money now with me not working that things which would be easier/possible/much less stressful if I could throw money at them are constantly cropping up...which inevitably makes me feel terrible for not bringing any money in right now, which makes me feel bad about a whole new arena of life. These things circle around and around and intensify each other in really unpleasant ways.

[silveradept]

They do, indeed. Hopefully that resolves in your favor soon.

[barakta]

Argh sorry so much of this is so hard and endless.

It sounds like it's OK to have an "ARGH UNFAIR" day. I hope you're able to resolve this problem and not have too many others pop up instead.