Tedious and tired

[cosmolinguist]

Yesterday was worse.

Making dinner was so hard I couldn't eat dinner. I just laid on my bed and couldn't talk or think properly at all.

It was scary because it meant that the problem wasn't contained in the immediate aftermath of counseling or whatever (not that I really expected it to be, given that I'd actually spent most of the session talking about how I was surprised not to be triggered by something that very reasonably could have been expected to leave me feeling really bad). And it was miserable.

I ended up sleeping for three or four hours and woke up because I needed to pee and D came to bed about that time. He thought I was asleep because I didn't move or talk. Until I had to get up for the bathroom and then after I came back to bed I was sobbing and we talked a little.

The conversation was good and useful. We came up with some plans. I know D has been struggling with poor sleep and I wouldn't have done this after midnight if I'd had much choice about it. But I did feel much better afterwards.

Today has started normally. But then so did yesterday (I was relieved when I could open the curtains and do chores while feeling okay), so who kmows.

Comments

[angelofthenorth]

Right, I'm cooking this evening :).

[cosmolinguist]

Only if you're sure! I can make easier things for dinner than I ended up doing last night.

And also here's hoping I won't feel so grim after work anyway. I didn't end up going to the gym yesterday and I know I should have, I definitely want to today!

[angelofthenorth]

1. I'm sure

2. What time do you want to eat?

[cosmolinguist]

7ish.

[otter]

I'm not up to reading behind the cut, but as for the rest - sending you hugs and loves. Thank you to your friend for making dinner.

[cosmolinguist]

The link is just to my previous entry, it's totally fine not to read that.

The food she made was absolutely delicious, I'm so lucky.

[barakta]

Yay for lovely food and humans, it is so nice when that works out.

[silveradept]

That sounds very rough. And that it's also something pretty big, if it needed a conversation after the therapy session, and a fair amount of sleep to also make that work out. I'm glad that it at least has set you back toward a more even keel, though. And hopefully things will actually settle down enough to make things work out or go more toward even.