Milestones of a sort
May. 31st, 2025 04:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cosmolinguistI did my split squats today and didn't hate them!
Split squats always get a groan when our trainer tells us to do them, no one likes them, but I've found them a particular trial during ankle recovery. They've so good for me that lunges (which are similar) were a formal part of my physiotherapy. But that also meant they were hard, no fun, and not terribly rewarding!
I've always been fortunate that my recovery hasn't featured a lot of pain, but that almost made it more difficult to monitor, and cope with, the intense weakness in that ankle (and the knock-on effects, like my already-atrocious balance somehow got (and remains) even worse?!).
Feeling okay until my leg just didn't hold me up properly can be unsettling!
I've patiently stuck with it, doing regular bodyweight lunges in circuits when other people are doing walking lunges with the biggest dumbbells available to us there (not very big, but still!) and having to tuck myself into the squat cage for split squats at lift club so I could hang on to the bars to keep my balance.
And now I can do (very slow, increasingly wobbly) walking lunges, and I can do split squats without hanging on to anything -- except a little kettlebell! And I might have to go up to the second-smallest size of kettlebell next time actually, I was thinking today.
It's nice to feel like I'm at about the level where I would have been starting if I hadn't broken my ankle almost immediately into taking up exercise as a hobby. I mean yes it'd be nice if it hadn't taken me a year and a half to get that far, but as with so many of the other changes in my body in the past year and a half, I try not to get caught up in what-ifs and wistful regret, and I think I am doing okay at that.
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Date: 2025-05-31 06:06 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2025-06-01 08:30 am (UTC)Aw thank you!
It's so important to me not to write about these things in a way that feels exclusionary to people whose bodies' capabilities are different from mine, so I'm very glad to hear that the way I am writing about this is something you can appreciate. <3
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Date: 2025-05-31 06:52 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2025-05-31 09:24 pm (UTC)Speaking from 21 years later
Date: 2025-05-31 11:30 pm (UTC)...you will get even better!
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Date: 2025-06-01 08:31 am (UTC)I remember you saying this early on, and I appreciate you sharing the benefit of your experience with me. <3