Pros and cons at circuits tonight

[cosmolinguist]

Pro: my first set of lunges was good! I felt great. My second set of lunges was so good the trainer said "perfect!" and made a 👌 gesture.

Con: before I even got to lunges on the third circuit, my ankle was twingy and sore, I had to stop doing something else (I don't know its name but it's another "weight on one leg at a time" exercise, my nemesis) early.

Pro: The trainer spotted this right away, checked on me, and when I got to lunges again in the circuit, they showed me a new exercise instead! I did one or two wobbly lunges and they were like "wanna do some upper body work instead?" and showed me a tricep thing.

I don't think I mentioned it here but at the beginning of this month it was a year since I broke my ankle, and the day before V's and my mom's birthday was the day I had the operation on it last year. Recovery takes so long. And I try hard not to dwell too much on what I've "lost" and what will never come back. A lot will, but I don't know anyone with such a severe ankle injury who doesn't have lasting decades-long impact from it.

I'm also aware of the potential for toxic positivity here in the demands to focus only on getting better and restoring normal function, so I also try hard to make room for my grief and triggers even if I feel silly for having them.

Comments

[barakta]

Bugger! I'm sorry the ankle decided to twinge after behaving so well. Well done for noticing it quickly and not overloading it, and YAY huge YAY to trainer who also noticed and instantly adapted your session.

If there is a chance of further recovery, gentleness, recognising twinge and being super careful are all things that will trend towards best-outcomes. In the face of society "just push through it" or sometimes unavoidable overload.

I'm sorry you have another impairment thing to live with, cos it's not like you started with 100% bodymind behaving, so it's YetAnother thing you have to consider, adapt around, keep in your brain and spoon-drain...

You are not silly at all for having those triggers. Your physical fitness/capacity/strength is clearly clearly something that gives you joy and has been a thing you always got to contribute to WonderHouse and more where other excellent humans (and dog) perhaps could not, this ankle embuggerance makes that a little more harder and is absolutely a loss.

[cosmolinguist]

has been a thing you always got to contribute to WonderHouse and more where other excellent humans (and dog) perhaps could not, this ankle embuggerance makes that a little more harder and is absolutely a loss.

This is such a good point. It's something I was incredibly mindful of first, when I needed all my food and drink brought to me and everything, but have probably lost sight of (ha!) recently, so thank you for the reminder.

[silveradept]

Recovery is a process, we are told, and good that you and your trainer were able to find things that would work, even if it's frustrating not to do what you wanted to do.

[mst3kforall]

I am glad that your trainer noticed the ankle immediately and had alternatives! It seems normal to me to grieve the former conditions even as I admire the way you tackle your challenges and the way your humans (and canine human:-) ) try to be there for each other.

[cosmolinguist]

Thanks for the kind words :)