I did go to work, late, into a meeting I'd missed half of so it has to be rescheduled anyway, and then another that has been an hour and a half long. I was grateful for it at first but soon found myself unable to concentrate on what anyone was saying or read the slides they were sharing.
I went to work and they expected everyone to be firing on all cylinders and there was no room for anything else. Gaaaah. But that's still better than having to talk about it at work.
I'm aware that there are cultures of care and safety that have always had to exist outside of the formal infrastructure of the United States, for the people it has always been hostile to.
I hope my fellow white people can find ways to integrate into those cultures rather than thinking we need to build them from scratch. There are people who know a hell of a lot more than we, in these early panicking despairing moments, do and we can listen and learn. We can help fix a mess we've caused.
I have been thinking this morning about what that means for me personally as someone far away and usually it's just donating money, which I'm already doing via mutual aid but I'll look to see where else I can. And being moral support for people as much as possible too I suppose.
The thought I keep having is that we've elected the equivalent of the random old white dudes who shout racial epithets at my family. I worry there will be more of those. I worry they will find ways to make the logistics of my life harder. I am boggled that they had enough support even in our rigged democracy.
I am lucky to be working in a place I'm looking forward to going this year morning. We will keep doing the work. It will be harder for a while. We may be less safe. But I am with good people who are pushing in the right direction, at least.
It's been hard trying to follow returns with two children and no adults to talk to in person, but maybe I should be grateful that the children aren't old enough to really care.
I'm sorry you've had to absorb this news without adult company. I'm glad you have people around you and work that helps though, that makes such a difference.
Thank you for your constructive links elseweb. I am sharing those and trying to follow your very wise advice about non-USAnians spouting doom unconstructively.
Interesting times will not begun to cover half of it, and yet, I find myself going "well, I'm going to work today, and I will do the work, and if I do the work well, then those that supported this outcome will correctly see the middle finger I have professionally extended to them."
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Date: 2024-11-06 09:35 am (UTC)I'm still lying in bed, everyone else is still asleep.
I'm not sure I can go to work today because if anyone makes a small talk comment at me about this I'll scream.
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Date: 2024-11-06 11:57 am (UTC)I did go to work, late, into a meeting I'd missed half of so it has to be rescheduled anyway, and then another that has been an hour and a half long. I was grateful for it at first but soon found myself unable to concentrate on what anyone was saying or read the slides they were sharing.
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Date: 2024-11-07 01:59 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-06 09:54 am (UTC)I'm aware that there are cultures of care and safety that have always had to exist outside of the formal infrastructure of the United States, for the people it has always been hostile to.
I hope my fellow white people can find ways to integrate into those cultures rather than thinking we need to build them from scratch. There are people who know a hell of a lot more than we, in these early panicking despairing moments, do and we can listen and learn. We can help fix a mess we've caused.
I have been thinking this morning about what that means for me personally as someone far away and usually it's just donating money, which I'm already doing via mutual aid but I'll look to see where else I can. And being moral support for people as much as possible too I suppose.
(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-06 10:48 am (UTC)I am lucky to be working in a place I'm looking forward to going this
yearmorning. We will keep doing the work. It will be harder for a while. We may be less safe. But I am with good people who are pushing in the right direction, at least.It's been hard trying to follow returns with two children and no adults to talk to in person, but maybe I should be grateful that the children aren't old enough to really care.
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Date: 2024-11-06 11:01 am (UTC)I'm sorry you've had to absorb this news without adult company. I'm glad you have people around you and work that helps though, that makes such a difference.
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Date: 2024-11-06 12:30 pm (UTC)Thank you for your constructive links elseweb. I am sharing those and trying to follow your very wise advice about non-USAnians spouting doom unconstructively.
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Date: 2024-11-10 08:54 pm (UTC)I'm glad it was helpful, I do feel too spiky about it sometimes.
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Date: 2024-11-06 02:15 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-10 08:55 pm (UTC)I'm sorry things are so difficult. I hope you're finding ways to take care of yourself and further the causes you value.
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Date: 2024-11-06 03:00 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-10 08:55 pm (UTC)Your work is good, and I'm glad that you share your thoughts on it with us.
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Date: 2024-11-07 12:44 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-10 08:56 pm (UTC)So much of what I do is powered by spite.
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Date: 2024-11-07 01:18 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2024-11-07 03:56 pm (UTC)