Weird how things linger

[cosmolinguist]

Yesterday after work I turned the TV on because it's a cue for Gary to chill out and know that nothing is going to happen for a while.

I think the last time I used my own Netflix profile was that day I was in the hospital waiting for the operation on my ankle. I downloaded Netflix on my phone and watched a little of a documentary about the Broadhaven UFO to distract myself. It didn't work that well. Seeing that show in my "resume watching" list conjured up a miserable day of waiting in a yellowy hospital room on my own, not able to eat or drink, not at all sure what was going to happen to me.

I'm trying not to let stuff retain bad associations with that time. The rainbow overalls I was wearing, which had to be cut off my leg, have been mended recently. MB had to pick plaster off them too. I'm so happy to see them again but... I've been a little wary of wearing them.

I watched more of the UFO show yesterday. I'll wear the dungarees soon. I do not need more weird little triggers.

Comments

[otter]

I'm familiar with how unexpectedly spikey those exposures to things can be. Fortunately for me, some of that wears off over time. I hope it does for you, too.

[cosmolinguist]

Thank you. <3 I think it will. I'm hopeful.