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[cosmolinguist]

Today's hero is otter, who drove down to my parents' house to pick me up and drive me to the airport.

They picked a pretty route with some fall colors. We stopped for snacks and ate them in a park in perfect weather, listening to kids playing.

It's so nice to have that space, between the stress of being around my parents and the stress of flying. I don't actually feel mentally stressed at all but I have been shaking like a leaf since I got inside the airport.

I thought it'd just be because I was struggling to explain the help I needed to the assistance staff (MSP continues to think everyone just needs a wheelchair!) and then getting through security which is always miserable. But I finished all that half an hour ago and I still haven't stopped shaking.

It's not a super normal anxiety symptom for me, but I suppose my body doesn't have just a normal amount of tension to let out right now!

Comments

[otter]

Maybe it was drinking the bottle of Cherry Coke that gave you the shakes?

Today is one of the best I've had lately :)

[cosmolinguist]

It might have been...Doesn't usually have that effect on me, but then I'd had unusually little caffeine in the time at my parents' (because they make very weak half-caff in the morning, and I drink it to be polite). I think all the stress was also trying to exit my body at the same time but the cherry Coke maybe didn't help. Ha, I don't care, it was worth it.

[sfred]

<3
I hope the rest of your journey is smooth.

[cosmolinguist]

It was, thanks!

[barakta]

Otter sounds fab! So lovely to have that support.

Maybe the shakes is a backlog now you're away from parents AND the airport stressors.

I hope you got onto your flight OK and have much gentle and kind support for yourself in the coming days/weeks as you decompress etc.

[cosmolinguist]

Maybe the shakes is a backlog now you're away from parents AND the airport stressors.

I think it probably was. So much stress!

*I hope you got onto your flight OK and have much gentle and kind support for yourself in the coming days/weeks as you decompress etc. *

I have!!! D came to meet me at the station, having just put fresh sheets on my bed (he and Gary had used it, with my blessing, during the week and at least one of them sheds a lot!). mother_bones had done my laundry for me and left it neatly folded in my room so I could just pick clean pajamas off the top of the pile when I went to bed last night. And today she brought me breakfast (a meal replacement shake ) and tea in bed, at about lunchtime, when I was finally awake. :)

[barakta]

I love your family, they're all so lovely and know what is important (clean bed, PJs and food/drink) and prioritise making those available and easy for you as you decompress.

I am confident they will continue to be awesome as you are also awesome to and with them.

[silveradept]

That was a lovely buffer between the stresses of parents and the stresses of flying.