cosmolinguist | [339/365] this Monday is especially Monday

I worked through the beginning of a migraine today.

These things always seem to turn up on days when I can't just call in sick. Today I had a meeting with my boss's boss (which was actually incredibly helpful in dealing with a big intimidating confusing thing, and she called me "very astute" when I was just trying to frantically pretend I wasn't completely over my head so I was surprised to hear such an effusive compliment!) and I was waiting all day for any details at all of the all-day training I am delivering for the first time tomorrow, which I finally got at 5pm. The guy in charge of the training seems to think I'll be fine at it but I have no idea why!

It was a miserable day, of aura and nausea and a kind of dissociation that made it impossible to get any work done. As soon as I finished Gary made me the target of his clingy mithering. When he finally settled down to sleep (after going outside, having more food, playing games, and playing with one of his toys) I tried to sneak upstairs but he followed me instantly and kept mithering.

mother_bones is having an ME flare so I'm glad to have given her a bit of a break but sorry it had to come at my expense. It seemed like a rough day for all of us. I hardly saw diffrentcolours today. Some days are just like this.

I really hope I sleep. I really hope I am better tomorrow. This training I'm running is 10 until 3, and then immediately I have a meeting about the most bleak topic area of my work (climate change). What a day.