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[cosmolinguist]

Today has featured an unreasonable amount of physical anxiety symptoms. I was having chest pains yesterday (that were very exactly like every other time I've had anxiety chest tightness, and nothing like a physical difficulty with breathing, so that's something) but they went away when I started to chill out in the evening with the booze and fun.

They came back this morning though, and soon I found myself struggling not to cry, nauseous, headachy, even needing to pee a million times for a little while. It was weird to be, like, crying but without a single anxious thought or even any thoughts at all really in my head. Usually my brain will manufacture a thought to justify the emotion somehow, but not today.

I wasn't feeling tired but I tried taking a nap before dinner to try to reset my brain, and I think it worked, but the chest pain started to come back afterward. It's very tedious.

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[barakta]

That sounds rubbish. I hope you manage to sleep and this craziness clears up soonest!

Btw those fonts you talked about the other day, I'm using the international braille one and I really like it. Thanks!

[cosmolinguist]

I slept awfully -- fitful and bad dreams -- but I haven't had such bad symptoms today so that's a relief!

I love that braille font, and I'm delighted it is of some use to you as well.

[lilysea]

Today has featured an unreasonable amount of physical anxiety symptoms

ALL the solidarity.

ALL the empathy.

Mine manifests as racing heart rate and breathlessness, to the point that I can't walk/stand. It's unpleasant.

[wolby]

oh, solidarity---this is my anxiety too. usually as gastrointestinal nonsense and restlessness. it is frustrating! like, "hello body, i hear that you feel anxious. would you like to tell me what that's about? no? okay then, we'll just sit here in discomfort i guess." i have assumed that it's because i'm very practiced at avoiding conscious anxiety, but maybe that's not always it. reading and other media consumption tends to help me, because it's distracting, but it's not always compatible with what i need to be doing.