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[cosmolinguist]

I'm so grateful I could outsource takeaway decisions to someone whose brain was working better than mine this evening.

We got Mexican! Which I hadn't had forever! It's almost impossible to get good Mexican food on this benighted island (true story: when I went to a drum clinic with my drummer boyfriend and professional drummers were giving master classes about drumming, a thing I know zilch about, I did ask a question...because one of the drummers was from California and mentioned there are only three places in the UK to get good Mexican food and one of them was his kitchen; I couldn't resist raising my hand to ask what the other two were (one I forget, but the other was a place innerbrat had already taken me to in London). It's not even easy to get bad Mexican food here -- easier now that Chiquitos has enough veggie options to be worth my while.

When I can go places, I can get good burritos...so I haven't had any in ages. (diffrentcolours and I used to go to Pancho's for lunch on a more or less regular basis, and I really miss it now; we checked right away to see if they're on JustEat or anything and sadly they're not.)

I ordered soft taxis because I was really in a mood for something simple, and I had veggie nachos too. Everything was fresh and delicious (even if all the jalapeños on my nachos had been fused together by melted cheese into some kind of Jalapeño King that I accidentally ate alliin one bite!)

I'm relieved that with that meal that meal I had gone from "struggling to eat all week" to "almost eating too much because it's delicious!" I lose my appetite when my anxiety is bad, and the lack of food leads to both a direct lack of energy and indirect increases in anxiety because it triggers disordered eating thoughts so that's a nice little vicious circle. Tonight was a delicious way to start to feel like I'm pulling out of this latest trough in that respect.

Comments

[steorra]

Yay for good food!

[otter]

Yay! Sending hugs. Disordered eating stuff is such a struggle.

[cosmolinguist]

It is, I keep going through phases of it being difficult for me, especially during pandemic times.

[otter]

So does every one in my house. And I'm supposed to be the 'responsible' adult.

[cosmolinguist]

I read your entry about that. It sounds so difficult to manage on your own.

[otter]

It is. So I've had to learn to allow myself to manage poorly or averagely, when I can't manage well.

[annofowlshire]

I’ve never been a big fan of Mexican, but after moving here I better understood why the Mr was so keen to eat All the Mexican when we lived in the States XD

[cosmolinguist]

Yeah I try to do that too when I'm back, same way I top up on going out for breakfast since I don't like English breakfasts. :)

[annofowlshire]

More pancakes and waffles? ^_^

[cosmolinguist]

Yeah and less meat and the things that get called baked beans and hashbrowns here. And I like fried eggs but I like having more choice in how my eggs are cooked.

[annofowlshire]

I like a Full English, but it’s definitely been a while since I had variety. Maybe pancakes next weekend....

[innerbrat]

I feel like that other is that food court place in Manchester we went to?