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[cosmolinguist]

Personally if not nationally practically nothing has changed for me in regards to lockdown and I don't expect it to any time soon. My brain is apparently dealing with this by assuming that life will never again be any differnet -- I will never again hug more than about two people, I'll never go to a pub again, I'll never have a holiday again. I just can't imagine those things happening at all.

And It's not good, but there's not much I can do about it. It's clearly my brain trying to keep itself safe from going into full-blown mourning about every little thing I'm missing, which is what I was stuck doing at first. And I don't know how to stop this "fine, I'll just never do anything again" without sliding back into feeling overly attached again.

Comments

[softfruit]

Yeah. This.

[otter]

Difficult to find that balance, if it's even possible.

[silveradept]

At certain points one wishes that there would be a lot more "adaptive" in our responses without the very pesky "Mal" coming with it.

[sfred]

This is about where I'm at too.

[jesse_the_k]

Aww, I'm so sorry to hear this.

Virus-brain is an ugly thing.

Sending you ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥s

[tarasacon]

Very much this. I'm flailing a lot of the time and it's challenging.