[227/366] last essay
Aug. 14th, 2020 09:58 pmI handed in my last essay today. (Well, my exam next week is likely to be a bunch of short-answer type of essays (my other quarantimes exam has been), but this is the last proper one.) I still don't have any sense of accomplishment or relief. I typed a message to ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
diffrentcolours saying I'd finished it, and I was so tired and stressed I thought I might burst into tears. I sort of left a space in my head to cry in, but then I didn't do it. My eyes got a little wet, but that was all. I did spend a few minutes lying on the sofa listening to TMS and feeling wobbly. But then I got up to make lunch and got on with my day.
It's so anticlimactic, finishing uni all by myself three months late. I mean I was never going to go to graduation anyway, but even by those expectations I feel like I've been left in a box where no one can see or hear me and I guess that makes it difficult to feel like what I'm doing matters. If I fall in a forest and there's no one there to hear, have I made a noise?
diffrentcolours saying I'd finished it, and I was so tired and stressed I thought I might burst into tears. I sort of left a space in my head to cry in, but then I didn't do it. My eyes got a little wet, but that was all. I did spend a few minutes lying on the sofa listening to TMS and feeling wobbly. But then I got up to make lunch and got on with my day.It's so anticlimactic, finishing uni all by myself three months late. I mean I was never going to go to graduation anyway, but even by those expectations I feel like I've been left in a box where no one can see or hear me and I guess that makes it difficult to feel like what I'm doing matters. If I fall in a forest and there's no one there to hear, have I made a noise?