Sometimes it's better to light a flamethrower than curse the darkness

Oh I don't feel bad in the least; my first year was so kind to us and I said at the time that there's no way I'd do nearly as well in the next two years. (I don't think I lack the intelligence to get a first but I lack the organizational skills to manage that around all the other work and responsibilities I have, and I lack the motivation too because I have no ambitions beyond "a decent job we can live off" from my degree.)

I just mentioned this because while I appreciate why, I just think it's a shame the first year grades don't count!