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cosmolinguist) wrote2020-01-30 01:19 pm
cosmolinguist) wrote2020-01-30 01:19 pm
[30/366] music, and milestones for millstones
30 What song are you listening to a lot right now? (Post a link?)
Still just Lizzo, really.
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Just short of 24 hours early, I have handed in the last of my overdue essays. This one has been my white whale: utterly neglected until I got done with the other two, on a subject I picked on a whim that ended up being a) too hard and b) my lecturer's area of expertise.
I've never written an essay I understood less, relied on sources more, or felt worse about. I truly, even a few days ago, couldn't envision any future where I got this essay done at all, where I ever didn't have it hanging over me unfinished. I still would struggle to believe it, but the always-stressful process of handing it in (made moreso by me having to email a backup copy as part of the mitigating circumstnaces) has flooded me with adrenaline and now I feel a bit unwell. It seems so anticlimactic, and yet my semester is now done...well, except for that exam I now have to take in August. Maybe that's why I don't feel as accomplished as I was expecting.
Still, this is a big accomplishment. It's been surprisingly tough working on it while starting a new semester: I could barely concentrate in at least one of my lectures for thinking about it and I had no ability to do my reading for this week before the seminar discussion today -- thankfully I got a very big break on that because the assigned reading was not only something I'd read a few months ago but something I heavily relied on to write an essay, so it was fresh enough in my mind that I could contribute to discussion today.
I have a lot of work to do for my new semester and it'll be a real challenge to make myself do any of it. I just want a break.
Still just Lizzo, really.
--
Just short of 24 hours early, I have handed in the last of my overdue essays. This one has been my white whale: utterly neglected until I got done with the other two, on a subject I picked on a whim that ended up being a) too hard and b) my lecturer's area of expertise.
I've never written an essay I understood less, relied on sources more, or felt worse about. I truly, even a few days ago, couldn't envision any future where I got this essay done at all, where I ever didn't have it hanging over me unfinished. I still would struggle to believe it, but the always-stressful process of handing it in (made moreso by me having to email a backup copy as part of the mitigating circumstnaces) has flooded me with adrenaline and now I feel a bit unwell. It seems so anticlimactic, and yet my semester is now done...well, except for that exam I now have to take in August. Maybe that's why I don't feel as accomplished as I was expecting.
Still, this is a big accomplishment. It's been surprisingly tough working on it while starting a new semester: I could barely concentrate in at least one of my lectures for thinking about it and I had no ability to do my reading for this week before the seminar discussion today -- thankfully I got a very big break on that because the assigned reading was not only something I'd read a few months ago but something I heavily relied on to write an essay, so it was fresh enough in my mind that I could contribute to discussion today.
I have a lot of work to do for my new semester and it'll be a real challenge to make myself do any of it. I just want a break.
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