Post-immigrant stress disorder

[cosmolinguist]

Intellectually I wouldn't say I feel very differently about trans, disability or immigration advocacy and activism (no body is illegal).

But on a subconscious level, it's always the UK xenophobia stuff that leaves me feeling most triggered.

I don't think about it, but I have to feel about it. My body really is keeping the score here. It's a feeling I don't get any other time, I can't quite explain it but it feels like mold smells and it's claustrophobic.

Naturally I talked about this and then related things in tonight's counseling appointment. Second time in a row I've felt absolutely wrung out like an old dishcloth by the end of it.